midwife:self care

knowing when you need to take a break from something that you love, can be so very difficult.  I realized that I was not providing the care that reflected my view and expression of midwifery.  I was so fatigued. It was not easy, and there were other circumstances that hastened me to take care of myself. Last May I contacted my clients, contacted other midwives to take over their care.  So very difficult,  not following though with their care as I had signed up to do.  But, I needed to take care of myself, to only take care of myself.  This might look different for other midwives but for me it meant to stop completely.   
I did some research on midwifery burnout. I learned, and I was comforted that I was not alone. 

The role of midwife is so unique.  I carry my clients with me, in my mind and heart at all times.  I have no staff.  I have no secretary, or other staff to carry the load, to bounce ideas on or ask a second opinion of. Not only do I need to stay up on the latest research pertaining to midwifery (this I love) but stay up to date on technology (I do not care for this part) and running a business, especially one that is attractive to Millennial's.  I just want to be a midwife, love on my clients and give the most competent care possible.

After seven months, no on call, no big decisions..... I am ready to return to my calling; Midwifery.  But with the clarity of practicing the way I was first called to, to serving women.  No longer being sidetracked by all the latest technical options, but I will outsource what I need to, allowing me to simply love midwifery again. Remaining mindful of self care, I will keep my practice small.
So happy, so excited!
Lisa